compare lesson.

well its 5.47am and i had difficulty sleeping.
to many problem playing in my head.
why cant i be happy for a second?

ouh well basically my problem is work and life.
well work been so hyper when cbface not working for two days.
well sorry if iam being rude towards my manager but she deserve to be call "CBFACE"
the reason is because she fcuking accuse me on things that i never done. because she lost her 10bux and some shortage in the cashtill. SO THIS IS WHAT SHE SAY.
"I SUSPECT FAFA STEALING MONEY FROM THE CASHIER"
"I SUSPECT THE MALAYS STEAL MY MONEY"
and that was what mak ayam told me.
&&
"I DONT WANT FAFA TO WORK HERE ANYMORE"
ouh welll. cbface i got three thing to say.
"MY PARENTS DONT TEACH ME TO STEAL"
"AND IAM NOT FCUKING DESPERATE FOR MONEY"
"IAM WORKING BECAUSE TO EARN MORE ALLOWENCE FOR MYSELF AND HELP FAMILY AND NOT TO MAKE YOU HAPPY WORKING WITH ME"
so theres no way i will do all this thing you say i do.
ouh shit my mum will be upset people accused her daugther.
well mum know my behaviour i will never steal.
i dont feel bad about it.
i just feel bad because i did everything she ask me to do and i try to be a employee but still you treat me like shit.
as what abg tell me "if she dont trust u. its ok because i do trust u"
ive been working with abg for 5months and no money been stolen.
SO CBFACE I JUST NEED TO BARE WITH YOU OR SHOULD I SAY WE NEED TO BARE WITH YOU FOR A MONTH OR SO AND SO LONG CBFACE.
THANK FOR MAKING OUR WORKLIFE THERE A HELL PLACE TO WORK.
LAST WORD _|_

well life have been fine lately,
someone is ignoring me.
BUT I FEEL GREAT ABOUT THAT.*frown*
someone got new gf.
AND I WAS SO HAPPY.
someone call me bacin.
AND I HATE IT. I SMELL STRAWBERRY OK.

even though iam happy.
but see many things happening.
love, please please stop ignoring me.
i cant stand another minute without you.
because in your eyes i would like to stay.
i cant take anymore sadness.
i want more happiness.
please give me that.
well maybe fatness does not belong in your heart.
but yeahh.
i still do have feelings like normal humans ehhhh ehhhhh.

mum say how can i manage to stay strong from all this.
well one thing make me strong.
FUTURE because i want to know whats next in my future.
issit gonna be the same.
or maybe something different.
ouh well.

GOING KL THIS WEEKENDS.
RELAX RELAX.
so yeah.
takecare people.

credits: nani,abgandi,nurul,feelzah,clauddy and eisk for making me feel way way better today!
love you guys excluding eisk:P

cause in your eyes i would like to stay.

HEY BOY!
CAN YOU STOP PRETENDING THAT IAM NOT EXIST IN YOUR WORLD?
WHEN YOU NEED HELP..
THE FIRST PERSON U CALL IS ME.
WTH AND WTF DO YOU THINK IAM

I TRY MY BEST NOT TO CRY.
BECAUSE I BET U KNOW HOW I FEEL TOWARDS YOU.
OUH WELL FAT WOMEN LIKE ME DESERVE THIS.
SO WHAT IF IAM FAT.
FAT LADY DESERVE TO LOVE SIA.

AND ONE MORE THING
IF YOU THINK THAT YOU ARE MAKING USED OF ME.
OUH PLEASE THINK BACK OK.
CAUSE I WILL FOR SURE WONT FORGIVE YOU FOR ALL THIS
ESPECIALLY FOR MAKING ME DONT LIKE WHAT IAM.

p.s you know i love you boy and i bet you know it.
but why cant u appreciate the way i love you just once?
ive been on my best behaviour when iam with you.
but it seems things are not working out.

mood:MISERABLE

matahari.

tertutup sudah pintu, pintu hatiku
yang pernah di buka dulu.
hanya untukmu

awww. haha
the paragraph from matahari song.
i like that song.

BORING. THREE DAYS OFF.
nothing to do.
stay at home.
tengok mama.
mama tengok adik.
hahaha.

ouh yaaa.
stop treating me like this.
i hate it.
but i dont know i keep fall for you.
haishyo. haha

takecarepoeple

reunion.

TODAYYYYYYY.
WAS THE DAYYYY
THAT MAKE ME GUGUGAGA THE WHOLE DAY
MEET MY 4CHARATER.
ITS BEEN AWHILEEEE.
AND EVERYBODY CHANGING.
HAIZAD MAKIN HOT.
IAN MAKIN HOT.
KEONG MAKIN HOT.
RAY MAKIN HOT.
EDMUND MAKIN IRRITATING.
NABIL MAKIN SELEKEY.
FARHAN MAKIN UBAN.
NADIA MAKIN HOT.
NANI MAKIN HOT.
MARDIA MAKIN HOT.
SYIQIN MAKIN HOT.
DHIDI MAKIN HOT.
&&
FARAHIMA MAKIN GEMOK.
hahahaha

i laugh alot ok today.
ouh ya mr shahril (ex form teacher) did lepak with us also.
hahaha "TEAC BILE MAU KAWIN?"
hahaha. bujanggg.

it was a hell ya fun today.
from 3pm till late nightt.
wuahhh talk talk laugh laugh
talk about the past.
make me go awwww.
hehe.

not feeling that well.
so got to go.
ouh ya nadress blog da siap uhh.
haha. takecare people
fallinggg

superbored.

(feeling over with shah camera)

hellllllloooo :(
very boringg.
super boringg.
nobody online.
nobody entertain me.
nani work.
others busy.

hahahaha sound so pathetic freak siak.
hahahaha.
ouh yeah. i cant i cant.
TIDAK TIDAK!
hahaha. cant love him.
NO NO NO.
hahaha.
mira know who kan.
hehe.

i miss tb.
i miss 4character.
i miss gr.
i miss mira.
i miss abg andi.
i miss you.

forcing my self not to fall for you.
takecare people.
will be updating again.
playing guitar hero!
hahaha.
boredtime accompany.

new layout.

hello.
new layout.
kinda boring so decide to change everything.
hahaha

but still desktop wallpaper nvr change.
still me and edward cullen.
hahaha.

ouh ya
HAPPY VALENTINE DAY PEOPLE
as usual stay at home.
sleep and sleep.
haha. my mum say "bayar niat"
haha. its like ive been sleeping late last few days.
so today i woke up until 4pm.
hahaha.
thank to papa for the splash the water to my face.
hahaha.

three days off.
ouh ya.
yesterday when out with ABD ANDI!
AFTER THREE MONTHS!
i miss him. i can feel the butterflies in my tummy. haha
like wanna meet my date. haha
go marina square play bowling.
dinner at kfc.
and this malay guy. make me super paisey.
he come to our seat and shake hand with abg.
and ask abg "ni kawan ke matair eh?"
and abg say "ni kawan saya"
and he goes like "boleh buat kawan?"
and i was like FCUK LAR PERGI HAHA.
and abg save me "takpe lar die malu uh"
hahaha and he go away.
my hand was all shivering with nani beside me.
hahaha. grab her pants so hard.
THANK EH MIRA FOR THAT LAUGHTER HAHAHA.
have a great time with abg and nani and mira.
hahaha.
next outing please. hehe

ouh ya. i love my blog song.
takecare people.

love story.

hello hello hello.

mood swing.
haha.

work was freaking tired.
i cant stand it.
with my manager.
feeling like quiting.
but thinking of people arnd me.
workmate.
johny.
deeya.
and him.
HAHAHA

ouh yaa.
hmmm. i got tired waiting tho.
i cant wait any longer.
it hurt me bit by bit.

talk to lin just now.
i almost cry with her problems.
but i must maintain due to the not waterproof eyeliner.
lin you are a strong lady ok.
you can go through all this.
we will always be by urside.

ouh yaaa. i saw this paragraph while i was reading love story book.
Its hard to move on when you still inlove with someone.
Eventhough that someone hurts you a lot.
You still cant stop loving him because you want to know whats next.
I have been hurt a thousand times.
I try to move on but i just cant.
Cause everytime i try to is like taking a knife slashing my arm.
It hurts to see someone you love for years ignore you blindly
But in my story that someone just dont bother about your feeling and go to another girl.
What do you feel if you are in my position?
Would you just keep quiet and keep this feeling or
You will shout alone in your room without anyone hearing?
As for me i will just keep my mouth shut eventhough my heart crying.
Nobody knows how i feel to them iam just a girl that is free from problem
But they dont know my sorry deep inside my heart.
All i can say that i try my best to be happy but iam not strong enough.
I had enough of all this.
As for now i will go on with my life like normal.

thats all!
&& that is how i feel deep inside.
hehe.

takecare people.
MEETING JOHNY TMRW!
EXCITED *RUNNING ARND IN CIRCLES*

sleepover.

Hey people.
teman teman. nari saya bosan banget.
terima kasih aja ada nani teman saya.
hahaha.
ok we play guitar hero.
and hello nani aku win ok!
hahaha.

and lucky got nadress also.
haha. layankan my merepekness.
talking about age matter.
ouh god i cant believe his 21.
muda oii muke die.
and this is what i ask.
Farahima; Nothing Further From the Truth ❤ says: (7:06:41 PM)
ape kah rashia anda? haha
Farahima; Nothing Further From the Truth ❤ says: (7:06:47 PM)
boleh anda berkungsi?
Farahima; Nothing Further From the Truth ❤ says: (7:06:49 PM)
lol
N ad Re 's says: (7:07:00 PM)
hahaks rashia saya?..
N ad Re 's says: (7:07:21 PM)
saya tidak ada rahsiaa di sebalik wajar yang kecantikkan ini
N ad Re 's says: (7:07:28 PM)
ini semua di tangan tuhan.. amin!
Farahima; Nothing Further From the Truth ❤ says: (7:07:43 PM)
terima kasih encik nadress ye?
Farahima; Nothing Further From the Truth ❤ says: (7:07:51 PM)
sekian wasalam.
N ad Re 's says: (7:07:54 PM)
same same kasih
N ad Re 's says: (7:07:56 PM)
amin
HAHAHA. THIS SUPER FUNNY.

ok cukup cukup

yesterday.
tasha sleepover my house. super fun! haha
she super funny. as usuall.
take some picture.
and webcam whoring. haha.

(GILA US)

(MY ADIK) HAHAHA
BLACK AND WHITE.
THIN AND FAT.
SHORT AND TALL.
STRAIGHT HAIR AND CURLY HAIR.

THATS ALL BABY!
TAKECARE
ouh ya. hmmm
ilyn.
hahahaha.

i love you.

time past so fast when you having fun.
i just hate to sleep and start a new day tomorrow.
when i am having fun with you.
because i am scared that the feeling will fade away.
i just love this feeling.
a strange feeling deep inside your heart that make you smile by yourself.
i want that feeling again and again.
every time i see your face i will smile the whole day without failing.

i just hate to the feeling that make me sad the whole day.
i hate it alot.

BUT YOU WILL NEVER KNOW.
THAT I LOVE YOU!
MUAHAHA..

ouh yaaa. TODAY at work was super tired.
feel like taking off my leg.
ouh ya get to know about nurul!
the real nurul! omg!
hahaha. richie rich uh?
RESPECT SAMA LU UH BABE!
HAHA
bet with mother karen.
if my sales better than her she will give me 10bux.
and if her sales is better i will treat her lunch.
end up i win!
WUHUUU. 1900 vs 1200.
hahaha. mother karen where u wanna korek that 7oo.
muahaha. ok evil laugh.
hehe.

johny please come back.
i miss you already.
haha.

takecare people.
ily but u will nvr know.

graduation day.

Graduation day.

Today was a hell ya fun.
Meet tb after a few months nvr meet.
I fcuking with them.
I dont want to pour anymore tears.
HAHA.
FINALLY IAM A GRADUATED IN TOURISM!!
hehe. happy.

whats next?
still blank.
pray hard that i will be strong to face all this.

ouh yaa.
webcam with adam.
stupid him go and crop away his pic and send me my pic alone.
THANK EH.
he say "aku suke gambar ini! kau cute mcm mak aku"
me say " thank eh adam, happy sia aku drg compliment kau"
HAHA. KURANGS.
i will upload it later.

ouh ya.
i miss johny larrr.
please come back asap.
text me asap. haha

ouh ya been down with flu.
sick and cough.
i cant take it but i must go work.
two days off. sunday and monday
sunday rest.
monday going out with gr excluding nadia.

p.s loving you is not a easy thing to do.
but i manage to hide this feeling for you. without leaving any trace of clue.

so ya. thats all. graduation picture will update soon.
takecare ppl.

(cute mcm mak kau kan adam?)
pantat! haha. TERPAKSE mengupload psl kau ok bodoh!

my smile wont fade away.

This smile wont fade away. Eventhough theres alot of ups and downs in my life.
I wont show that to anyone. Behind that that fat lady hahaha.
Theres alot of problem happening to me.
Best buddy lie to me.
Best buddy lie to me.
Imagine that best buddy ok.
For one fcuking year i think that he really exist in my world but nahhh.
I hate you.

I start to miss someone already.
Haha.
A brand new feeling.
But i know i will be disappointed in the end.
ILYN.

OUH YA.
Just now when out with nani and mira.
OTW HOME. i saw something staring at me.
i turn to my left and i saw EDWARD CULLEN! AWWWWWW.
HIS EYES! AWWWWW. MAKE ME GO GUGUGAGA.
I LOVE EDWARD CULLEN OR ROBERT PARTTINSON.
ouh its actually twilight poster. hehe
ouh ya JOHNY PEN.
Going back SARAWAK.
Haha.
Far away from me. SO SAD.
I will miss you for a week.
And send my regards to your mama and papa.
Hahaha.

OUH YA FCUK VALENTINE DAY.
HAHAHA.
NO DATE. AS USUAL FOR THE PAST 18 YEARS.
HAHAHA.
TAK LAKU
STANDARD!
HEHE

TAKECARE PEOPLE.
gr please reply my msg ok.
ilyn.

unexpected.

hey people!

been busy with work, and outing!
hahaha. yesterday was super duper great day with nani,mira,jans,hiddy, adilah and the rest i forget.
new friend tho. hehe.
new friend mcm bukan new friend. haha
lol like nobody business. when sheesya with them.
it was super fun tho. i love it alot.
talk talk. laugh laugh. cough cough. hahaha
LAUGHING. HAHAHA

while we having fun. i decide to talk with adilah about something.
AND WTH WTF! I GET TO KNOW THE TRUTH.
ALL THE PROVE IS CLEAR NOW.
BLOODY HELL.
SANGUP SIAK KAU BUAT KITE GINIK.
BABI.
ok da marah sikit sikit aje.
suke hati kau lar sia kau nak tipu.
one day kau kene lagi teruk.

work was tiring.
AND MY HAND BURN :(
damn. today is my clumsy day.
johny pen label me as clumsy girl.
hahaha. thank eh.
when out with him a few times.
and i almost tublle things. hahaha
so funny!
all he do is lol.
hahaha.
u make my day lar syg!

but still iam still piss of with what happen to me.
been crying not because of sad.
iam crying because i am stupid enuff to trust that lady.
BABI UH KAU!

ouh ya valentine day coming.
rose on my head during work.
johny will go like "dont open ur rose can?"
hahaha. cause everytime i when out with him.
my itchy hand will have the intention to open. hahaha
i look like fool u know that?
hahaha.

my twilight book. almost finish.
iam reading it as slow as possible cause i want to treasure every moment with edward to work
hahaha. i will treasure every moment. thank for accompany me to work. hahaha
okay iam talking to a book. hahaha.

ouh ya. hatetagger thank eh for not disturbing me anymore.
and nadress thank for your help :)

i love nani and mira and mardia and dhidi and nadia.
and susi and feelzah and nurul and mandy and kak farah.