you change my whole life.

every night.
every day.
of my life.
not even a day of my life i never think of you.
try my best to say to myself.
forget about him and move on.
but all the memory keep on stucking in my head.

yes i admit i have short term memory but come to you my memory doesnt seem to be short. it tend to stay.
hahaha.

everyday i browse through the text and chat log we used to have.
the smses will accompany me to work everyday.
the songs that you wanted me to listen.
thats the two things that accompany me everyday to work.
thank for giving me a chance of a life time that i know i will never feel it again.

i just cant stop reading all our chat log.
i love it 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,10,
11,12,13,14,15,16,17,18,19,20,
21,21,23,24,25,26,27,28,29,
30,31,32,33,34,35,36,37,38,39,
40,41,42,43,44,45,46,47,48,49
and the last wonderfull chat what i love it 50.
i love it is the name of the document i save our chatlog.
but the most wonderful is i love it 36 and i love it 43.
THE BEST and tears start to fall when i read it cause we two are just replying each other msn every time we send.
how i wish i could seat down here and talk to you.
how i wish your smses will wake me up early in the morning.
how i wish you can know how much u mean to me.

but life have to move on.
nobody know how i feel inside.
it hurts alot tho but i moving on with laughter without showing and clues to anyone that iam not ok.

thank baby for the memory.
have fun and long last with your gf.
takecare.

this one year crush aint going away eya eya eya eya.
haha "tet" wrong its going away sooner or later.