it hurts alot!

HEYYYY

its been a long time i nvr update.
cause many things happening to me
hmmmmmm.

actually not in the mood to update.
but iam so damn boreddd..

IAM GOING HO CHI MINH! WUHUUUU.
LUCKLY WITH TC. GOT NANI,MAR,KIN.HEHE
CAN SLEEP WITH LESBIAN PARTNER NANI.LOL

LAST TUES.
WAS VERY TRAGIC.
my body is super painful.
bleeding hand.
swollen head.
hmmmm.
i just dont want it to happen again.
hmmmm


why must this happen to me?
haiyoooo.
its painfull.
now.his leaving me,
why must he leave me?
because of her.
nvm.
this is the deepest hurt ever.
take a long long long time to cure.
TB AND NANI AND GR
IS THE BEST REMEDY
but it gonna be better if he the one.
support me.
he dont even bother about me anymore
even as a friend he dont.
why must he leave me all alone here?

hmmmm.
iam not being myself anymore
iam changing
iam gonna be a quiet person
CEHHH CAM REAL.LOL

MUM SAY "ADEK, JGN CAM GINIK. MAMA TAKOT ADEK JADI GILE"
ME "BIAR GILE. DA TAK SANGUP HIDUP"
MUM SAY "APE LAR KEISTIMEWAAN DIE?"
ME "EVERYTHING!!, I WANT THE LATE NIGHT CHAT WITH HIM LARRR"
MUM SAY "SUKE HATI KAU LAR ADEKK"

EVEN MAMA WORRY ABT ME.
i will seat alone in my room.
staring at the picture.
reading the chat log.
hoping he gonna come back.
but its to late
i should tell him.
before he go with another girl

not only mama.
PAPA SAY "ADEK NOT THE TIME TO HAVE MATAER LAGI"
ME "HMMMM"
PAPA SAY "HMMMHMMM TAKDE WORDS LAIN KE?"
ME "HMMMM"
PAPA SAY "PAPA AS A MAN KNOW HOWS A GUY FEEL. IF HE REALLY LOVE YOU.HE WILL COME BACK TO YOU AGAIN ONE DAY"
ME "HMMMMMMMM" *LOOKING AT HIM WITH TEARS*

HAHAHAHA.

not only my parents
even piggylisa ask me to forget about him

NANI " I KNOW HOW HURT IT IS BUT YOU MSUT BE STRONG"
NADIA "FARA DONT SAD"
PIGGYLISA "FORGET ABOUT HIM LAR"
THX ALL

YANII " AWWHHH.CAN STILL BE FRIEND"
HAHAHA

i just hope the next time i fall in love.gonna be the real man for me.cause i cant take the pain anymore.
this hurt is super deep.I NEED A LONGER TIME TO CURE IT

TAKECAREPEOPLE


iamgonnaloveyounomatterhowlongittakeiknowitswrongtolovesomeonethatisattachbuticanttakeit!