buang.

NEW YEAR COMING.
COUNTDOWN COUNTDOWN
HAHAHA

GONNA UPDATE MORE TMRW.
TODAY SUPER TIRED
CHANGE BLOGSKIN.

LOVE SAYANG CINTA.

going away.

Theres nothing more i can do.
and theres nothing better i can do.

The best way for me now is to move on and forget about him
but its difficult for me cause i love him.

But a guy like him just to difficult to win his heart.
Eventhough i know him for awhile but its random that we talk.
He just treating me like a doll that he will talk to me when he feel bored.
damn it.
its difficult tho.

Thank deeya for telling me about him.
i feel much more better.
its hard for me to forget him.
taking a knife killing myself.
HAYAK HAYAK. HAHAHA

ouh yeah.
can i be a superhuman to that someone?
hahaha. awwwwwww please allah can i?
hehe

people been saying that iam just a strong lady.
i can face all this problem alone.
but i cant cause i need some support.
but i still told myself that iam strong.
i still force myself to be ok.
allah always giving me such a test cause he know i can take it.
i can face it.
but i fail to face it.
i just have the strength to face it.

maybe what deeya say is true "like time change it for you"
cause she know it will be difficult for me to move on.
ok enough with the jiwang lar farahima.
hahaha

OUH YA MEET UP WITH BABYNADIAA.
GO HOME WITH HER.
AND I ALMOST TEAR BECAUSE I MISS HER ALOT.
DAMN
TAKECARE LOVE
SAYANG KAU GILE BABI.

confused.

SUPER DUPER MISS THE OLD TIMES.

hello people,
now as you can see i so rajin to update my blog everyday.
and this is an additional item in my daily routine.
wake up,bath,go work,go home,blogging,sleep and the same thing everyday.
HAHAHA BEDEK UH.
off days. lepak lepak lepakk.
hahaha.

so work have been tiring but all my tiredness wash away with wonderful workmate.
ESP WHEN MAK TAKDE.
hahaha ouh ya i want to introduce my belo and my gundu head workmate and lunch partner
NURUL SYAHIRA! TADAAAA hahaha. she the crazyiess lady on earth that i ever know. she will jump anywhere and dont care what people say. she will always do that goldfish emotion when she is bored. until i get addicted with it. thank eh nurul. hahaha
I WILL MISS YOU FOR TWO WEEKS :(
I WILL MISS FEELZAH!
ouh ya feelzah is another giler kakis there.
she know my secret. bahhhh SHHSSSSSSS.

johny pen is adorable pendek.
agnes b malay guy super funny always laugh at me due to some reason. hahaha bluek :P
the reason is one day mak ayam wanted to buy something from agnes b so she wanna get staff discount so she ask me to call him if i saw him walk pass so he walk pass my outlet and i was like "pst pst" hahaha a few times until he turn and look at me.
since that incident he will go "pst pst" if he saw me. thank eh pendek. haha

SINCE I WORK THERE I LEARN MANY FROM MY WORKMATE.
they nasihat me alot.
they make me became a better person.
they encourage me to do something that i have difficulty doing.
they support me and make me smile if i have bad day.
they will always say "fafa see that guy", "fafa he so hot", lastly may ayam word "fafa jangan nak menjuburkan diri ok, jage marwah"
HAHAHA THATS THE THINGS THAT THEY WILL SAY TO MAKE ME SMILE.
hahaha

gr i miss you guys.
syiqin frankly say i miss you..
haish.

FARHAN KAU IRRITATING!
NANI IS FALLING INLOVE WITH TUT!
hehe

takecareloveeee<3
NURUL SYAHIRAH TAKECAREE ILOVEYOU

kegeraman.

HELLO!

blogblogblogblog

so today had a wonderful great fabulous time with zye,nani,shah,dee,hidayah,nadia and tut at sentosa! SUPER FUN. SUPER HOT at first after a few hours under the sun the rain start to pour.
super fun! iam the camerawomen today cause i didnt swim due to some women matter hahaha.
so shah past me her NEW NIKON D60 and i was like bahh shit damn it i want that camera.
so i took alot of stupid picture. hahaha
but it turn out to be nice tho.
shah commented my photograph "blur like you also" hahaha
hahaha that was the starting larrr. its been quiet awhile i never snap pictures with nikon.
so after one hour my picture turn out to be supernice. hahaha
puju diri sendiri ehh. i just loving taking picture.
so we reach there talk talk swim swim eat eat and flashback more and more of it.
nani been pull into the sea by the bully partner haha.
and her reaction was super funny hahaha.
ouh ya we suppose to meet at 11.30 and i arrive 11.45 hehe :D
and shah super confident "will farrah be e last one to arrive"
hahaha so nani and i run all the way to the control station end up seeing three gundus seating down and shah was not there. hahaha
TU LAR CKP ORG LAGI :P
so nadia late =_=
so i must fetch here from bus station to the place. and it was like super far. hahaha
nvm for my babylove can hehe.
after that when lepaks at vivo.
THE FUNNIEST PART! KHALYZ AND THE GANG CAME AND WE ARE PLAYING "CARIK KAN"
example. khalyz will say "carik lima batang untuk aku"
hahahahah AND WE ALL LIKE ORANG GILA CARIK.
END UP WE ALL GIVE UP AND HE SHOW HIS FCUKING FIVE FINGER!
hahahaha.so its my turn i say "carik kan aku tin coke?"
hahaha everybody was like mane sial mane sial. hahaha
padahal that tin was beside jana(khalyz friend) HAHAHAHA BENGOK!
SO I SPENT MY DAY OFF WITH THEM WAS A BLAST SUPER BLAST!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. I LOVE YOU GUYS.

TOMORROW WORKING.
shah picture soon okay.
takecare people.
ouh yaaa JOHNY PEN I MISS YOU! HAHAHA

melepas.

It takes a while for me to choose the correct skin for my blog.
All skins dont really suits.
Until i found this skin like "TADAAAAAA" hahahaha
merepek sia.

So erm, been busy lately since christmas is coming
Tonnes of gift set being sold.
And 18k a day? holy shit. haha
CRAZY.
tomorrow gonna be the last day working for the year.
ASYIK.

26th gonna get result!
holy shit. can i like dont check my result.
iam scare what if i fail how about my future huh?
god cant stop thinking about this.
working? nahh i need education to leave in singapore.
private maybe. private in travel and leisure.
hahaha. pray hard that i pass.

so lately.
trying myself not to fall for someone.
because he have a date.
no no cannot kacau.

ouh ya.
when clinic just now.
with nani thank for the accompany.
i was telling that doctor.
ive been having bad pains.
and stomach pain.
she reply "do you want to do any pregnancy test?"
and i was like "what?! i never had done sex how can i be pregnant?"
HAHAHAHA.
doctor doctor always look down on teenager now a days.
i know theres alot of before marriage but not me.
hahaha. adoiiiii.
nani say "babe what a joke of the day"
hahahaha babi kau.

so now deeya is telling me something.
hahaha. and iam shaking hahaha.

TAKECARELOVE.

running back.

There nothing i wanna update.
i just dont have mood lately.
iam sick and tired with people that dont appreciate me.
mum cant stop scolding me.
dad too. i just dont know why maybe because they found out something but bahh they knew it long time already.
its ok.

Love?
try to move on and forget about him.
but bahh still cant.
try to inlove with starbuck guy.
but bahh still cant.
try to find new lover.
but bahh still cant.
his love walauwei so strong lar. haha
until make me keep on running back to him.
and his love make me forget about all the bad things that he had done to me.
i just keep running back to him.
*lari lari terpelecok jap jeling kat dalam starbuck tapi tetap lari mengejar cinta yang tak kesampaian.* HAHAHAHAHAHA. merepek.



enjoy uh the video.
hahaha.
but i cant move on cause i cant forget everything we had. ewahhh hahaha

BYEBYE.

mampos.

malas nak layan.

hard to get.

three emotion to describe my feelings.
SAD, LONELY AND DEPRESS.
this three feelings been playing around with me for the past few days.
sad because i just cant take it when i saw couples walking holding hands.
lonely because i got no one to hold hands.
depress because i just cant get any partner. haha

how i wish what i want or i wish for will come true.
how i wish i have fairy godmother that will grant my every wishes.
how i wish i can be as pretty as a fairy.
how i wish that he wont be so ego and not choosy.
how i wish i can turn back time and tell him the truth before his attach?
how i wish i can tell that someone i love him and
how i wish he wont phew infront of me after i tell him that.

if only all my wishes can come true.
i will the happiest girl on earth.
but nahh i wont wish all my wishes come true.
cause i cant fight with what god has write for my future and story life.
i must accept it. iam happy that god gave me chance to be in this world and explore this different feelings.
eventhough iam not happy inside.
i will always try to smile and laugh outside.
because i know i still have my gr (syiqin is not included anymore), my family. my friend and workmates that will always make me smile and laugh out loud.
i try my best to make myself happy.

baby nadia bday just past. I LOVE HER TO THE BITS OF MY HEARTS.
and baby nani always. I LOVE HER TO THE TINNY PIECES OF MY HEARTS.
the same meaning tho. hahaha

ive been eyeing on this starbuck guy haha only deeya know who.
deeya rashia ok baby? haha.

takecare people.
try my best to be the best for him. haha

expensive dude.

check yes romeo.

bored.
gonna be mia from blog for a while.
busy with work.
no mood with life.

falling in love.
hahahah. nahhh

miss tb.
miss life.
miss chatting with peoples until late night.
hmmm.

bored with life.
bored with people.

angry with stupid work mate.
angry with that starbuck guy.

irritated with work mate.
irritated with my life.

happy with some work mate.
happy with swatch guys.
happy with customer that make me smile.

sad with life.
sad with myself.

takecare people.
ily.

check yes romeo.

hello.
atlast attachment finish liao.
now as a part timer.
miss working tho but having great time at home.
hahaha

miss mak ayam alot! hehe.

SO PEOPLE.
yesterday when back to school. was a blast!
i miss them! but we dont react like we miss each other. haha
laughing and giggling is the first thing i reach school. haha
take picturee and more picture.
i just love tb. hehe
but i didnt manage to meet some other course mates. its ok baby we can still meet other day. but i get the chance to meet LYDIAABABY! HUHU HAPPY SNGT! and bari hahahaha. smileysmiley cheeky cheeky. hahaha
WEEEEEE HAPPY SUNGGUH!
after that go lepaks with mardia,nani,jananana and kecik! hahahaha.
try try to ride his bikes hahahaha. so funny. bahhhh
jananana tompang and she was like eh fara eh fara hahaha.
but the engine is not on yet. until kecik turn on the engine she go "mampos" hahaha
cause i twist the thing to loud. hahaha
best best. he suggest me about some bikes. and i decide which bike to ride. huhu

few more days to go until ayang bday and nanibaby bday.
idk what to get for them. broke sia. haha
hmmmm.

sooo.
i miss bubu. haha.where are u bubu?
hope u doing good.

thats all.
takecare

is this true or what?

HEY PEOPLE.

OK FCUK IAM BORED!
hahaha

people people. life have been a blast lately.
but only outside mahh.
but inside only gods know.

ive been wondering myself.
why must this happen to me again and again.
when ever i love that someone.
there will always be someone interfere.
if i love that someone for one or two month i can get over it.
but now i love that someone for one year. or even worst for four years.
end up telling me i have someone else.
what ta fack?
hahaha
but why must they do this uh.
dont they think whatever that they did to me or some other people who been victim with this kind of guy will come back to them?
is not that i wanna say karma do happen.
but still they should understand mahh.
but lucky not all guys are like that.
some are just so sweet and adorable.
how i wish every guy in this world is like the other guy.
hahaha. but nehh everything happen for a reason.
even though it hurts alot to see couple walking by me holding hands.
i know iam ugly. but dont ugly people deserve to have someone that love her?
i just wish i was that lucky girl that i saw recently. sorry to say this but she was big size. but she have a lovely smile,cute behaviour and a loving bf..
but its ok. sooner or later.
everything have been write by god.
so we just accept it.

theres other suffer more than i suffer.
and i just dont know how can they be super strong without pouring a single tears down their cheek.
i hope i can be as strong as them.
now i just wanna study and make parents proud of me.
eventhough i always they call the "BLACK SHEEP" in family but still i wont make my parents hurt.

just pray hard.

HAHAHA SUMPAH AKU JIWANG NARI.
hahaha.

hope that someone which allah choose for me will come to me asap.
hahahaha. cause i need love.
hahaha. merepek =_=

OK LAR!
TAKECARE
p.s iam not over with you ok.

kemarahan

I AM SO SICK OF FALLING INLOVE WITH SOMEONE LIKE HIM.
hahahaha

hey people.
having my moody moody moment now. haha
and tiring my best to be ok.
eventhough iam not. bahhhh

due to some fcuker out there.
fcuker stop being irritating can?
"is she irritating or what?"
sape sia irritating. babikau.
hahahaha
please lar. stop it.

gonna have a weekend off this week.
happy lorr. two days never see my "WONDERFULL" manager!
hahaha.
attachment ending soon

i miss tb so much!
meet this 1 dec!
hehe. and graduation day!
hahaha
TB OII!

gr! nani,dhidi yest celebrate kecik bdae.
but i didnt get the chance to hug mymardia.
ouh yeah. adiksyiqin. please come back home
AND TO YOU THAT FCUKER SHEILA GIVE MY ADIKSYIQIN BACK TO US CAN?
PLEASE LAR KAU FIKIR KITE TAK TAHU DIE KAT MANE? BABI KAU.

chatting with new friend now.
nadress nice name huh.
btw stop denying the truth.
u are cute. haha
gugugaga moment with nadress.
very funny lar him

ok lar. takecare people
byebye<3
p.s iam not desperate for ur love or anyone. fcuker

ghostly mood.

(when boredom strike)


Today having my off day before going to the war tomorrow hahaha.
weekend mahhh so many customer like war. hahaha.
ok lame.

This lazy butt just cant get off my bed i woke up at 2pm.
but i slept late last night. Around 5am.
Iam just bored with my life.

ouh ya. lately ive been realize that many asian is dating english man?
its cool but what about the asian guys?
poorthing but not all asian girl lar.
&& chinese guys with malay girl.
&& malay guys with chinese girl.
&& indian guys with malay or chinese girl.
since i work rfc different kind of couple i can see.
sometimes they are just so sweet but sometimes the are acting like a sweet couple.
but its cool that the are mutli racial. hahaha

ok thats all.
and i cant believe i finally forget about that one year crush.
i hate him.
hahaha.
takecarelove

sometimes it hurts.

Today, is the day that officially forget about someone.
Thank god! Iam cool with it. He have the time to give others comment but not me.
Iam not jealous or what, iam his friend too.
It hard to forget about him cause its been one year i have a crush on him.
I know maybe its not my faith with him.
Having my bahhh mood yesterday but i learn a lot from that experient
But it hurts a alot. Its ok iam still smiling haha.

BUT!
Last Saturday, i make my four year and the longest crush i have mad at me.
Due to what i say to him. So now he knew about the four years thinggy. And his cool with it. Thank god. But nahh he wont be with me due to some reason he say and i dont wish to eleborate more cause it will hurt me more. haha

The best thing is just six days after he broke my heart another hope of mine broke my heart too. Thank you guys, guys are always the best =_=

OK ENOUGH WITH EMOING.
now back to me. haha
NOW WORK IS A BLAST. AND I REALLY MEAN IT BLAST.
cause its christmas season already. YAYA i know its fast.
&& like every week we must change the display and stuff.
Thank to my BELOVED manager for putting my shedule every time the stock come or must change display must have my name in it.
Thank alot.
but theres so fun parts too with makyam,feezah,suu hahaha the crazyones plus me. and mandy and the rest excluding my BELOVED manager. haha

GR, i miss you guys so much.
outing soon. ok i always say that but we never go out. haha
ok after we finish attachment then we meet you k babynad? hehe.

TB, MEET YOU GUYS THIS 1DECEMBER WUHUUUUU!
hehe then go makan at our favourite place MR PRATA. hahaha

ok. that all.
wanna go to beb.
takecare
&&iam so gonna delete ur num.

loneliness

busy with work.
busy with life.
busy with love.
busy with friends.
busy with everything.
hahaha

last sunday. slaming damnding lor. haha.
two wedding at one time.
abg yus and kak eka marina first.
the wedding was a blast. i wanted to stay till the last part. where all of my aunties and even the couple dance hindustain. bestnye.
but kak kamilah and abg adam wedding also was a blast. meet my crazy cousin.
talk shit, but yati and amir is not there so out shit is not that shit. but not until tasha the shit ass is not there. hahaha. if she was there its gonna be a shit ass laughing moment. haha. pakcik aman if u reading this. sorry tak censored sikit. haha.
btw pakcik aman is my regular blog reader. haha
the pakcik that i love so much. haha

the next day must work. wuah piang lei. so tired.
karen is a mf. her mouth so wadever lor.
nvm i will see how. whether i wanna continue next year or not.
but feezah,mak yam all want me to continue. hahaha. so wait and see lor.

tmrw work until monday. so tired. now christmas season already. like wth? not even one month to christmas sia. but nvm.

&& thx to fyla,dee,shah,dhidi,renuka and nanisyg to give me a look at my new job. thx.
love you guys. and zye sorry i didnt work lar just now. zye also msg me wanna meet me but i nvr work. thx ladies. MEET UP SOON TB.

takecare.
byebye

crush

HELLO!

atlast i have the time to update my blog.
been so busy with work,work and more work
hahaha. been so busy until i forget to do my schl project. hahaha. reason.

life is bored. HARI RAYA WAS A BLAST.
but i feel bad i didnt get to go out with tb. cause my secondary school friend also go out on the same day. so its not fair lor.
i miss tb alot. TB OII OUTING SOON!

so now i must force myself not to love him anymore. cause he have a great plan ahead with someone else. yeah goodluck pal.

i told someoene the truth. hahaha he was shock. and he told me the same thing to :D
hahaha

i miss my cousin lar.. yati goodluck for ur a level ok, dayah and amir too goodluck for your o level. ayu and tasha goodluck with THE THREE FINGER CLUB. hahahaha. you guys know what i mean. hahaha adik shakilah i miss you and thank for giving me that useless guy num. idiotic lor he. hahaha.

btw work, i meet great work mate esp mak yam she really good. shima,kak farah, feezah (gile), mandy, gregory and all. but sometimes the manager sucks alot. not only me cant stand it the rest too but what to do she our "MANAGER" hahaha

ok thats all i gonna say.
ouh ya did share my deep sorrow problem with fftp. and he really make my day by saying all those words that make me twice as better.
thx fftp love yaaaa..

takecare friend
i miss gr, nani,nadia,mardia,dhidi and syiqin happy with ur attachment excluding nadia happy with ur new guy. muahahaha. love you guys.

TB

This entry is about TB

i just want you guys to know
how much i treasure you guys.
you guys own a large piece of my heart.
i dont want our laughing moment to end.
i dont want our joking moment to end.
i love those time.
8 months is not enough for us.
i want to extent the school weeks.
after attachment i wont be able to see you guys again.
tomorrow gonna be the break fast outing. and i dont want it to be our last outing.
i want for outing. after fasting month and attachment we find one fine day to go out ok.

special appreciation,

lisa, thx for being my bored partner at school.

shah, cagali! thx for being that someone that make me smile everyday.

zye, ashikebab! your advice to me i wont forget. and thx for the nick name HAGRET!

dee, my tattoo artist. haha, i love your hand drawing.

haizel, joker! thx for making us non stop laughing in class.

sophia, cutie pie! your cuteness wont be forget "i dont want to die" hahaha chu chi tunnel memory

tengy, my look alike smile mate. i love you.

shuhui, my korean addict mate. hahaha. i love you.

chris, laoda, thx for taking care of us. we really love you. we really do.

alvin, my naughty naughty pal. hahaha

nadia, thx for being that someone i can talk with and share my problem with.

yana, polar bear. thx for supplying me something. when i need one. hahaha.

fyla, my rnt dont know partner. hahaha. we always dont know what to do during rnt. haha

fatin, my crazy kakis. always layan my nonsence. hahaha. thx.

shela, the catwomen. hahaha ur nail scratch your enemy. hahaha

nicholes, the guy that cant stop talking hahaha. tell me more stories :D

liah, the gal that i wont forget.

aisyah, fishball! thx for hearing all my problem. and we are crying buddies!

lastly, dhidi, thx for being my five years mate.. and thx for not stopping being my friend and entertain all my mood swing. i love you alot.

I REALLY LOVE TB.
I CANT WAIT TMRW!

TAKECARE

Closer

CLOSER CLOSER.
hahahaha.

FINALLY, exam finish.
leave me with one test.
not exam. so dont really count. hahaha

I GOT TO GO.
BYEBYE
TAKECARE

7 things

13 more days.
to hari raya.
i dont fell like it but bahhhh
hahaha

yesterday got kenduri at tasha place.
it was fun to have break fast together. and solat together.
but the heart breaking part is man u lose. wth wth wth!
hahaha
and they are super happy! cause they are liverpool fans.
its ok. got next match!

i had a great dream last night
can i have more great dream today and the next day and the next day
hahahaha
last two days. nice dream ive been dreaming
very nice
hahaha

tuesday, RNT test must study.

takecareLOVE