is this true or what?

HEY PEOPLE.

OK FCUK IAM BORED!
hahaha

people people. life have been a blast lately.
but only outside mahh.
but inside only gods know.

ive been wondering myself.
why must this happen to me again and again.
when ever i love that someone.
there will always be someone interfere.
if i love that someone for one or two month i can get over it.
but now i love that someone for one year. or even worst for four years.
end up telling me i have someone else.
what ta fack?
hahaha
but why must they do this uh.
dont they think whatever that they did to me or some other people who been victim with this kind of guy will come back to them?
is not that i wanna say karma do happen.
but still they should understand mahh.
but lucky not all guys are like that.
some are just so sweet and adorable.
how i wish every guy in this world is like the other guy.
hahaha. but nehh everything happen for a reason.
even though it hurts alot to see couple walking by me holding hands.
i know iam ugly. but dont ugly people deserve to have someone that love her?
i just wish i was that lucky girl that i saw recently. sorry to say this but she was big size. but she have a lovely smile,cute behaviour and a loving bf..
but its ok. sooner or later.
everything have been write by god.
so we just accept it.

theres other suffer more than i suffer.
and i just dont know how can they be super strong without pouring a single tears down their cheek.
i hope i can be as strong as them.
now i just wanna study and make parents proud of me.
eventhough i always they call the "BLACK SHEEP" in family but still i wont make my parents hurt.

just pray hard.

HAHAHA SUMPAH AKU JIWANG NARI.
hahaha.

hope that someone which allah choose for me will come to me asap.
hahahaha. cause i need love.
hahaha. merepek =_=

OK LAR!
TAKECARE
p.s iam not over with you ok.

kemarahan

I AM SO SICK OF FALLING INLOVE WITH SOMEONE LIKE HIM.
hahahaha

hey people.
having my moody moody moment now. haha
and tiring my best to be ok.
eventhough iam not. bahhhh

due to some fcuker out there.
fcuker stop being irritating can?
"is she irritating or what?"
sape sia irritating. babikau.
hahahaha
please lar. stop it.

gonna have a weekend off this week.
happy lorr. two days never see my "WONDERFULL" manager!
hahaha.
attachment ending soon

i miss tb so much!
meet this 1 dec!
hehe. and graduation day!
hahaha
TB OII!

gr! nani,dhidi yest celebrate kecik bdae.
but i didnt get the chance to hug mymardia.
ouh yeah. adiksyiqin. please come back home
AND TO YOU THAT FCUKER SHEILA GIVE MY ADIKSYIQIN BACK TO US CAN?
PLEASE LAR KAU FIKIR KITE TAK TAHU DIE KAT MANE? BABI KAU.

chatting with new friend now.
nadress nice name huh.
btw stop denying the truth.
u are cute. haha
gugugaga moment with nadress.
very funny lar him

ok lar. takecare people
byebye<3
p.s iam not desperate for ur love or anyone. fcuker

ghostly mood.

(when boredom strike)


Today having my off day before going to the war tomorrow hahaha.
weekend mahhh so many customer like war. hahaha.
ok lame.

This lazy butt just cant get off my bed i woke up at 2pm.
but i slept late last night. Around 5am.
Iam just bored with my life.

ouh ya. lately ive been realize that many asian is dating english man?
its cool but what about the asian guys?
poorthing but not all asian girl lar.
&& chinese guys with malay girl.
&& malay guys with chinese girl.
&& indian guys with malay or chinese girl.
since i work rfc different kind of couple i can see.
sometimes they are just so sweet but sometimes the are acting like a sweet couple.
but its cool that the are mutli racial. hahaha

ok thats all.
and i cant believe i finally forget about that one year crush.
i hate him.
hahaha.
takecarelove

sometimes it hurts.

Today, is the day that officially forget about someone.
Thank god! Iam cool with it. He have the time to give others comment but not me.
Iam not jealous or what, iam his friend too.
It hard to forget about him cause its been one year i have a crush on him.
I know maybe its not my faith with him.
Having my bahhh mood yesterday but i learn a lot from that experient
But it hurts a alot. Its ok iam still smiling haha.

BUT!
Last Saturday, i make my four year and the longest crush i have mad at me.
Due to what i say to him. So now he knew about the four years thinggy. And his cool with it. Thank god. But nahh he wont be with me due to some reason he say and i dont wish to eleborate more cause it will hurt me more. haha

The best thing is just six days after he broke my heart another hope of mine broke my heart too. Thank you guys, guys are always the best =_=

OK ENOUGH WITH EMOING.
now back to me. haha
NOW WORK IS A BLAST. AND I REALLY MEAN IT BLAST.
cause its christmas season already. YAYA i know its fast.
&& like every week we must change the display and stuff.
Thank to my BELOVED manager for putting my shedule every time the stock come or must change display must have my name in it.
Thank alot.
but theres so fun parts too with makyam,feezah,suu hahaha the crazyones plus me. and mandy and the rest excluding my BELOVED manager. haha

GR, i miss you guys so much.
outing soon. ok i always say that but we never go out. haha
ok after we finish attachment then we meet you k babynad? hehe.

TB, MEET YOU GUYS THIS 1DECEMBER WUHUUUUU!
hehe then go makan at our favourite place MR PRATA. hahaha

ok. that all.
wanna go to beb.
takecare
&&iam so gonna delete ur num.

loneliness

busy with work.
busy with life.
busy with love.
busy with friends.
busy with everything.
hahaha

last sunday. slaming damnding lor. haha.
two wedding at one time.
abg yus and kak eka marina first.
the wedding was a blast. i wanted to stay till the last part. where all of my aunties and even the couple dance hindustain. bestnye.
but kak kamilah and abg adam wedding also was a blast. meet my crazy cousin.
talk shit, but yati and amir is not there so out shit is not that shit. but not until tasha the shit ass is not there. hahaha. if she was there its gonna be a shit ass laughing moment. haha. pakcik aman if u reading this. sorry tak censored sikit. haha.
btw pakcik aman is my regular blog reader. haha
the pakcik that i love so much. haha

the next day must work. wuah piang lei. so tired.
karen is a mf. her mouth so wadever lor.
nvm i will see how. whether i wanna continue next year or not.
but feezah,mak yam all want me to continue. hahaha. so wait and see lor.

tmrw work until monday. so tired. now christmas season already. like wth? not even one month to christmas sia. but nvm.

&& thx to fyla,dee,shah,dhidi,renuka and nanisyg to give me a look at my new job. thx.
love you guys. and zye sorry i didnt work lar just now. zye also msg me wanna meet me but i nvr work. thx ladies. MEET UP SOON TB.

takecare.
byebye

crush

HELLO!

atlast i have the time to update my blog.
been so busy with work,work and more work
hahaha. been so busy until i forget to do my schl project. hahaha. reason.

life is bored. HARI RAYA WAS A BLAST.
but i feel bad i didnt get to go out with tb. cause my secondary school friend also go out on the same day. so its not fair lor.
i miss tb alot. TB OII OUTING SOON!

so now i must force myself not to love him anymore. cause he have a great plan ahead with someone else. yeah goodluck pal.

i told someoene the truth. hahaha he was shock. and he told me the same thing to :D
hahaha

i miss my cousin lar.. yati goodluck for ur a level ok, dayah and amir too goodluck for your o level. ayu and tasha goodluck with THE THREE FINGER CLUB. hahahaha. you guys know what i mean. hahaha adik shakilah i miss you and thank for giving me that useless guy num. idiotic lor he. hahaha.

btw work, i meet great work mate esp mak yam she really good. shima,kak farah, feezah (gile), mandy, gregory and all. but sometimes the manager sucks alot. not only me cant stand it the rest too but what to do she our "MANAGER" hahaha

ok thats all i gonna say.
ouh ya did share my deep sorrow problem with fftp. and he really make my day by saying all those words that make me twice as better.
thx fftp love yaaaa..

takecare friend
i miss gr, nani,nadia,mardia,dhidi and syiqin happy with ur attachment excluding nadia happy with ur new guy. muahahaha. love you guys.

TB

This entry is about TB

i just want you guys to know
how much i treasure you guys.
you guys own a large piece of my heart.
i dont want our laughing moment to end.
i dont want our joking moment to end.
i love those time.
8 months is not enough for us.
i want to extent the school weeks.
after attachment i wont be able to see you guys again.
tomorrow gonna be the break fast outing. and i dont want it to be our last outing.
i want for outing. after fasting month and attachment we find one fine day to go out ok.

special appreciation,

lisa, thx for being my bored partner at school.

shah, cagali! thx for being that someone that make me smile everyday.

zye, ashikebab! your advice to me i wont forget. and thx for the nick name HAGRET!

dee, my tattoo artist. haha, i love your hand drawing.

haizel, joker! thx for making us non stop laughing in class.

sophia, cutie pie! your cuteness wont be forget "i dont want to die" hahaha chu chi tunnel memory

tengy, my look alike smile mate. i love you.

shuhui, my korean addict mate. hahaha. i love you.

chris, laoda, thx for taking care of us. we really love you. we really do.

alvin, my naughty naughty pal. hahaha

nadia, thx for being that someone i can talk with and share my problem with.

yana, polar bear. thx for supplying me something. when i need one. hahaha.

fyla, my rnt dont know partner. hahaha. we always dont know what to do during rnt. haha

fatin, my crazy kakis. always layan my nonsence. hahaha. thx.

shela, the catwomen. hahaha ur nail scratch your enemy. hahaha

nicholes, the guy that cant stop talking hahaha. tell me more stories :D

liah, the gal that i wont forget.

aisyah, fishball! thx for hearing all my problem. and we are crying buddies!

lastly, dhidi, thx for being my five years mate.. and thx for not stopping being my friend and entertain all my mood swing. i love you alot.

I REALLY LOVE TB.
I CANT WAIT TMRW!

TAKECARE

Closer

CLOSER CLOSER.
hahahaha.

FINALLY, exam finish.
leave me with one test.
not exam. so dont really count. hahaha

I GOT TO GO.
BYEBYE
TAKECARE

7 things

13 more days.
to hari raya.
i dont fell like it but bahhhh
hahaha

yesterday got kenduri at tasha place.
it was fun to have break fast together. and solat together.
but the heart breaking part is man u lose. wth wth wth!
hahaha
and they are super happy! cause they are liverpool fans.
its ok. got next match!

i had a great dream last night
can i have more great dream today and the next day and the next day
hahahaha
last two days. nice dream ive been dreaming
very nice
hahaha

tuesday, RNT test must study.

takecareLOVE

sempurna

THIS IS REAL, THIS IS ME
all my life i pray for someone like you.
but when i found someone that i pray for.
i starting to feel regret.
regret in the sense the way you treat me.
you ignore me.

SOON.
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

ENOUGH IS ENOUGH.


takecarepeople

Selamat Berpuase

SELAMAT BERPUASE SEMUA!

HAHAHA.
fasting month have come.
all our late grandparent soul are release.

i miss nenek so much.
now she is around me always.
i love her alot.

TMORROW SCHOOL ALREADY!
TIRED!
FASTING!

WEDNESDAY WORK ALREADY!
TIRED!
FASTING!

HAHAHA

TMRW GONNA UPDATE AGAIN.
BYEBYE
TAKECARE
waiting for pple to talk with. haha

Better In Time

PEOPLE!
IAM BUSY WITH WORK.
SCHOOL.
TIRED. SUPER TIRED LOR.

happy teachers day to my very own beloved teacher MR SHAHRIL JUMAT.
his the best teacher. he understand me alot.
i mean alot. hahaha
sorry didnt make it today.
got natas talk.

i was hoping to get a good attachment soon.
i wanna continue study larr.
papa nagg.

all my mama sickness transfer to papa already
he cant stop nagging larrr.
please papa. hahaha
but the way he nag is kinda funny.
hahaha

btw sorry papa, i didnt mean to do it.
it will be my last time to do it.
i promise
hahaha
ceyyy

fall for you back?
NO WAY. HAHA. AFTER WHAT YOU HAVE DONE TO ME.
I WONT.

i will still l0ve my one and only tut tut tut
hahaha

TAKECARE
enjoy my night talking with two best buddy.
haryani and fftp a.k.a alanredwannovahussien.

Sick And Tired

GREETINGS FROM ME.
HAHAHAHA

merepek gituk.
TODAY SUPER FUN AND SUPER TIRED.
must dress up for BEG. its was fun yet tiring.
from 8 till 4 must where high heels shoes.
plus after schl go town. dinner at swensen
and we celebrate our mr joker in class bdae.
HAIZZEL ARIF. HAPPY BDAY JOKER!
during lesson. so excited must put on make up.
and i dont even know how to put on make up.
so i call mama and ask her. hahaha.
afterall our class turn out to be the nicest class to dress up so far.
my leg is aching not mine only. my gfs in class too. hahaha
very shocking to see zye and shah so pretty. damn pretty.

while typing my eyes is half close. hahaha.
sleepy.
gonna upload pictures tmrw.
i was hoping to dump into someone just now.
but i dump into diff person. hahaha

tmrw napfa and i super tired.
nvm today sleep early lor.

TAKECARE.
p.s fttp takecare misses

Hari Ini, Esok Dan Seterusnya

HEY.

having a great time this few days.
talking with crazy friends.
that make me laugh and smile everyday.
irritated with mom.
she just cant stop nagging at me =_=.
what to do. fftp will always say remember "MOM"
hahaha.
waiting for someone
that make me smile every single day.

clean up my room
my messy messy room. now is clean.

listen to my fav playlist.
sing a long season everyday.
thats make me smile. haha
singing my fav song now. PARTY PEOPLE.
hahaha rap macam mamak keling.
hahaha

i look happy outside but
inside. GENG GENG GENG.

i just hate her. she just cant get enuff.
she stole everything from me.
nvm. i wont do anything.
god will.

control my anger.
haha

takecarepeople

P.S HAPPY BDAY DHIDI.
I LOVE YOU LIKE HELL YA.
MAY ALL UR WISH COME TRUE.

kangen

OUH LOVE.
I MISS YOU SO MUCH

happy birthday to my beloved deeyanah!
hope all her dream come true.
i love her alot.

next week monday.
must dress up.
formal wear.
WTF? i dont know what to wear.
hahaha

Now. iam addicted to this song
mengenangmu by kerispatih.
nice song.

havin bad headache now.
so gonna update soon
byebye
takecare

p.s i miss myfttp.

BAHBAH

HELLOOO
SICK AND TIRED.
SO CANT UPDATE.
HAHAHA

TALKING WITH YANI
SO YAAA

BYEBYE
TAKECARE
PATHETIC SIA THIS ENTRY.
BAHAHAHA

Two face busted

Heyhey.

yesterday was fun,
talk someone about my problem.
and that someone is yani.
she really great at make me laugh and smile back.
and even forget about that bitches.
not forgotten i did talk to fftp yest.
was fun. kinda miss him. so talk it all out yest. haha.
and the day before. awesome lar

&& had a dream last night.AWESOME OII
TELL YOU THIS AWESOME SNGT!
hahaha. i told yani. she was like adoi. haha

sooo.
today, someone did tell me something that i dont wanna hear.
that girl, haish i trust her. nvm i just know her for 8 months?
i dont wish to continue my friendship with someone like her.
i dont even bother her life. but why must she bother mine?
thx bff for telling me all this.
thats what we call bff.

BUT WHAT I CARE?
btw my blog. wuah hangat.
i dont know lar.
i wanna delete it but my frens was like "eh jgn i love drama"
hahaha. but its kinda true. DRAMA.
i dont know what i did wrong people wanna hate me?
hahaha.
if you hate me "iffazat" come to me and tell aites.

TMRW GONNA BE A NEW DAY.
and iam got mission! haha
lame.

takecarePEOPLE.
p.s thx yani for always be by myside ily.

sick

HEY IAM SICK.
SUPER SICKK. WEAK TO WALK.
HAHAHA.
TIPU UHHH.

EH I GOT STUPID TAGGER.
STOP IT STOP IT.

can i go a million miles away from herw?
stop being a burden in my life.
i really wanna be free now.

hahahaha
bahhhhhhhhhh..

p.s i miss fttp. haha. so long nvr talk.

TAKECARE.
BYEBYE
gonna update soon. hahaha

fading

HELLO.
SO TODAY NOTHING MUCH. HAVIN THIS FCUKING FLU.
SNEEZING THE WHOLE DAY. UNTIL I FORGET HOW TO DO MY RNT =_=
i wanna cry to bad. why must i be sick in this moment of time.
the important thing i need to study and do. i must study hard
many people stare at me just now. until i piss of and show this sign _|_ to them.
irritating oii. i go out the whole bunch look at me. i outside they look at me.
maybe that someone told them about me. FCUKER. TUTUP MULUT UH.. if they got any problem with me can talk right. haiyo. grow up lar dey. ITE ALREADY. ITE DEY ITE.
hahaha
my classmate(thecloseone)ask to ignore them cause they always realize it.

SO.
ive been thinking lately.
its better to stop loving him.den i hurt
but his my first love.
so its super diff.
but i try.
i cant manage to forget about him.
so i think back.
i should give my emotion another try.
if i can manage with it.
i gonna continue loving you.

HAHAHA. JIWANG HABIS.

sick

HELLO.
TOMORROW SCHOOL ALREADY. AND GUESS WHAT I GOT TEST.
WADUHH. STRESS OIII. BUT HOPEFULLY I CAN CATCH UP WITH MY STUDIES.
MANY THINGS HAPPEN AND BOTHER ME LAR.
WHY CANT PPL STOP BOTHERING MY LIFE?

maybe everything changing between you and me?
and pple stop making us fade apart can?
esp to that bunch of loser.

6 more weeks schooling. den attachment.
hope to get good attachement place.
hmm.. gonna go job hunt this friday. hahaha

I REALLY WANNA HAVE A GOOD REST.
MUST PREPARE FOR TMRW TEST.
TAKECARE PEOPLE

p.s to that bunch of loser. stop all acting ok.